....oh!please lah...

.....semalam dah petang benar tetiba ada sms tanya am i at home,cos she wants to come....
of cos lah i kat rumah and welcome her.....
***ingat,tetamu datang bawa rahmat..rezeki...

.....first statement yang keluar from her mouth lebih kepada question...
'i datang dengar you sakit...kena serangan cancer semula..they all kata you sampai dah redha aje.. is it true...'
i cried in my heart dengan statement tu....
apa lagi keluar from her mouth......
walaupun sekadar pertanyaan...
ya Tuhan...
pedihnya hati..panasnya telinga..
namun, terima kasih ....itu aje yang sempat di ucapkan...

yes,i admit mmg i da lama elakkan diri from her.....
bukan i x kenang her...she visited me when i was sick kat ganu...twice lagi...
and her 2nd  dotter is my adopted girl..
masa we all balik kl semula,mmg i agak rapat ngn her...
but incident when i received a phone call from 'z' masa kat her house..and her big mouth dah buka cerita lain kat tempat kerja....sedangkan between z and i only as a friend.... we were talking about z dapat performed his haj....we shared tears cos terharu dapat panggilanNya.and I plan going to his house masa his kenduri haji nanti.....I told her about it..she just smile..

.....Suddenly i was warned by my good friend...not to open any  story to her lagi...i was dissapointed...tetiba i di kata not to kacau rumah tangga orang...
Ya Allah,payahnya memegang 'status' ni..
why they always have negative thinking...
...i know myself....and i belum terdesak ....i ada maruah diri...x semudah itu kasih berganti....
sedihnya  bila jadi 'bahan cerita'...

.....since that i jauhkan diri sampaikan i never accept her fb friend request...
biarlah..sebelum i meletoppp...
and semalam her words buat i jadi tambah keciwa...
selama ni rasanya everyone doakan agar i sembuh kembali...
rupanya  ada juga orang yang boleh fikir i will sakit semula..
x tau dari mana the story comes....

....friend....i bukan sombong and memilh untuk berkawan...
dan i tetap ingat apa saja kebaikkan yang dah di berikan..
tapi itu bukan bermakna everything about me boleh di ambil tahu...terlalu di ambil tahu
especially my personal life....kisah dalam kain i...
belum lagi apa yang u buat when we were at the same tempat kerja dulu...
i ada hati & perasaan.....kisah  peribadi i..itu hak i...
so sorry lah...
sekali dulu pun  i dah terkena..
when my personal  di cerobohi...habis semua nya di selidik cari nak  ambil tahu...
lebih sedih ..bila jadi bahan perbincangan...minta pandangan...
salah info & wrong number to contact..
hu hu hu...
ngeri untuk diingat..
it really hurt.....

....friend(s).....
.I da maafkan apa aje yang melukakan..
i hope,if i ber'jauh'an dengan you..you will understand it..

in sya Allah
the kids and me akan hadiri jemputan majlis anak you tu....